it’s a little bit more than nothing
19 Nov
so tonight i realized i was bored…at 6pm.
i spent the entire day, dying to leave work, and when i finally got home, i had nothing to do. i wanted to go out for dinner, and maybe have some drinks, maybe go look at guitars, but i didn’t want to do any of those things alone, and thus, after some pathetic attempts to find someone to hang out with me, i decided that i would scrapbook.
i’m not a scrapbooker…by the way. i don’t have the patience. the fact that i now have 2 pages done, doesn’t mean much. it really just means that i wasted 2 hours of my life. i suppose they look okay. and maybe someday i’ll look back on them and say “wow, looks like we had a great time in florida back in 2005″
actually i’m saying that now. that was a fun trip. a little conflict-ful at times, but fun, nonetheless.
some highlights:
i actually just miss college a lot. i miss being so close to so many people all the time. it takes such effort to get together these days. i really took it for granted. but i couldn’t possibly stay there forever.
i’m really excited for thanksgiving. i just want to see my family and my dogs. and just chill out. i haven’t chilled out a lot. i feel always on edge. and anxious. and tired. maybe it’s because i’ve been sick and had a lot going on.
i think i’ll make some food for thanksgiving this year. i don’t know what yet. something easy. that i can make the night before. because apparently in vandalia it’s really cool to go out the night before thanksgiving, and because it’s the thing to do..i just do it. i think my little sister is coming this year too. which is nifty. she’s fun.
we’re going to have a margarita night soon. if i ever go to edwardsville again. or maybe she should just come here because she never comes here. ever. i’m relatively sure she still hasn’t been here…
she doesn’t even KNOW how cool it is here.
sometimes i call her and make her go shopping with me. she usually goes. we usually don’t buy much…we just waste hours in the mall. usually eat some food. she usually owes me money afterwards. she waits long enough to pay me back that i forget, and she actually never pays me back…
it’s okay, i guess. company is a good thing when shopping. i hate shopping alone. i hate doing most things alone. i think i’m a pretty social person, but i don’t like to talk to strangers at the mall. and depending on what i’m wearing, the sales ladies MIGHT choose to talk to me. more often than not, the ignore me. i go to stores like the limited where they are apparently too cool to talk to me (as i often look like i’m 14, and 14 year olds are worth their time, i guess)
it’s amazing how much more attention i get if i’m dressed up.
i should always wear a suit to the mall. the customer service would increase i’m sure.
customer service is one of my pet peeves. i can’t understand how a sales person would ignore a perfectly good customer just because they aren’t wearing the right clothes or look too young. i just figure, no matter what, treat the customer well, sometimes they will surprise you.
apparently that is not universal.
whatever. they ALWAYS smile at mcdonalds.
over the weekend i did see some college friends. in fact, i saw a LOT of college friends. i walked into melissa’s apartment to see a plethora of people flooding the smallish living room. and people i was happy to see. except the 2 girls i didn’t know. i might have been happy to see them if i had known them, though.
i love exchanging stories and laughing with friends i haven’t seen in awhile. and it was fun. good clean fun. board games like catch phrase, and some other game..
it was good.
i would really like to play mad gab sometime though, the commercials make it look pretty good, in my opinion. i’m just pretty sure we’d have a lot of fun if we played it.
OH and have you ever played apples to apples? maybe this is nerdy of me, but it’s just a purely awesome game. everyone should own it. i seriously almost buy it every time i’m at target. (christmas/birthday idea, mom…stef…abby…does dad blog yet…??)
just sayin.
once my mom was discussing how a lot of asian men blog, and my dad, who seemed to be preoccupied, chimed in with “if i was an asian, i would blog”
i almost died. if you knew my dad, you might also find this humorous.
i also want a new camera. my nikon died. yes, died. she no longer functions. i knew it would happen eventually, i just didn’t think it would be so soon, i just wasn’t ready yet. so i was thinking i’d get another nikon. perhaps a step up…D40??
professional style, baby.
i’m just not sure if i’m ready to drop those large bills on it yet. i might save a little longer, think about it, see if the price goes down, see if another company comes up with something better, something even MORE user friendly. it’s not about the mega-pixels, folks, it’s about the entire package. and i feel like the d40 might be it. at least for now.
i have gotten a camera for christmas every year for 3 years. i’m not sure i’m ready to break that pattern yet.
hint, hint.
lastly. there is a ring i might purchase. it’s the last one at helzberg. now, really, i’m not a ring person. i’m not an expensive jewelry person, but when i saw this ring, i just knew it had to be mine.
only problem is, it’s $250. for a ring. something i might just lose. not on purpose, of course. anyway, it’s a diamond treble clef. it’s turned sideways. i swear it’s cute. and discreet. nice.
i’m afraid it’s going to disappear for forever, but i’m also afraid of spending that much money on it…
ugh. decisions, decisions.
i used to think decision was a difficult word to spell. i always messed it up, but never really took the time to see how it was actually spelled and remember it. i know now. but i used to have this thing for the band soul decision (give me a break, i was 16), and i could never spell their name.
i grabbed the lead singers foot while he was performing. i might have grabbed his hand instead, but he was too cool to lean over and offer a paw, so i had to settle for what i could get.
i saw shaggy that night (yeaaaaah, “it wasn’t me”)
it’s not something i’m proud of, but it’s a legitimate part of my past that i wanted to let you in on.
anyway, i feel as if the rambling has continued for far too long tonight.
happy thanksgiving everyone. i hope the holidays find you well.
-jessica
I’m not lonely
But I’m all alone
I’m trying to go to sleep
But I can’t go to sleep
I lie awake with
Colored lights and ideas
Stacked up high
Where’s the diamond in my
Messy mind?
New Buffalo ~ Time to go to Sleep
One Response for "i guess this counts as being productive.."
ugh stop complaining! i tried to hang out with you, but i wasn’t good enough. i hate you!
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