i’ll be trading in my suits for jeans.

i accepted a new job at an advertising agency called switch

it’s near downtown stl.

i’m pretty excited :)

i start on April 28th.

-jessica

This is one for the good days
And I have it all here
In red blue green
Red blue green

Radiohead ~Videotape

 

 

 

Be prepared to modify your plan.

It’ll be good for you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

life is so precious

and so fragile.

 

 

 

 

 

 

You’re not the things they told you way back then
You’re so much more than ideas in your head
So bury them
And keep them so they can return when you’re alone
And so that you can fight them in the end

 

cartel ~ write the down

lately i’ve been feeling really lame as a result of heavy media consumption. particularly my television. i just turn it on for noise and then evenings escape me. and i’m lamer than the day before.

so.

as of tonight at about 7:30 pm, i have decided to unplug it.

this will continue for at least a week. i’m having some pretty serious withdrawals currently, but i think it’s better this way. my background noise is now some sweet tunes.

the glare on the screen won’t bother me now.

the hardest part was the pure silence that occurred as i settled in to a completely dead quiet empty apartment before i could get the laptop booted up.

i actually heard my neighbors (usually they hear me–they probably hate my guitar)

so that is my challenge. i feel i can succeed. perhaps if the next week serves me well i will continue. the hardest part is the first week, i hear.

the cold sweats will go away soon.

good thing the office isn’t showing new episodes. i would never make it.

i’ll keep you updated.

i cleaned my room today. for no apparent reason, other than to feel more comfortable in the place where i live. i tried to move the things that have just been sitting, like the box from my laptop and the pictures of trees that i purchased from old time pottery 2 months ago sitting in the corner. they look much better on my wall.

i feel like i have all these loose ends floating around. in my apartment. in my friendships. in my job. just floating about. they aren’t really bad loose ends…they just leave an unsettled feeling, making it difficult for anything to feel complete.

i realize it’s impossible to tie up every end, but it’s nice to try. it’s nice to see the floor in my closet. it’s nice to push the dust off some of things that i’ve been neglecting, too.

i’m not organized. i think i’d like to be. not TOO organized, though. i need lots of room for creativity. it doesn’t seem to occur that much in the confines of very particular organization.

breathing room.

too much clutter and too much disorganization though, that can kill you. it can stifle everything that could potentially be great. so many things to think about that none of them get enough attention to flourish. great ideas die and nothing succeeds.

happy medium, i hope for.

there’s a pile of empty orange tic tacs next to my tv. that’s another addiction of mine. my parents felt the need to break my dry streak and purchase quite a few very large boxes to stuff in my stocking. which i ate rather quickly. so quickly that some didn’t even make it in my mouth, i guess. i keep finding stray tic tacs around the apartment. megan too.

last night at the pet store i wanted to pet a ferret. the are tricky and fast. as i was petting one and conversing, the little furry beast flipped his head back and attempted to eat me ( i think)

however, i quickly pulled my hand back

straight into the overhang over the tank. and now the knuckle over my left index finger hurts considerably a lot.

i probably should have just let him bite me.

in an attempt to be optimistic, i feel i should mention that the sun is setting about a minute later each day. we’re on the way out of these awful dark short days. more light = more happiness. i cannot wait for the longest days. the warm ones when you can swim at night without shivering. shorts and flipflops. and maybe tents. i think i want more tents this year. please camp with me.

and boating and fishing and rollerblading.

ahhhh summer i miss you.

but we’re getting there, slowly.

i figure once the holidays are over the winter is pretty much worthless. we should probably skip jan and feb. march can stay. for now.

-jessica

At the edge of the rest of your life
At the end of a one way road
I was losing everything
And tonight may never shine
If you never open your eyes
I keep this heart right next to mine

the anniversary ~ the siren sings

…when i have to work early in the morning.
additionally, i feel pretty crappy. probably from lack of sleep.

i do love taking the weekend shifts.
it is nice, though, having a day off in the middle of the week. after work tomorrow i’m heading home to the good ol’ town of Vandalia.

you’re jealous….aren’t you?

i feel like i haven’t visited home in forever–probably because i really haven’t.

so today i kicked off a new promotional program at work. it’s a referral program I put together for our branch. i hope it works. if not, it’s possible that i’ll look bad. so probably I’ll need to push this.

and if you don’t bank with Regions already….you should maybe start :)

and you can win an ipod.

yep!

so i haven’t really been overly busy, at least I don’t think that I have. i’ve been doing a lot of fun things lately. last weekend in particular I spent a ton of time in stl.

friday i was lucky enough to get to go to the melting pot.
in case you haven’t been–it’s absolutely fantastic. after an amazing dinner, we hit up a movie at the Tivoli called Troll 2.
oddly enough, it had nothing to do with trolls….just goblins and was so awfully bad that it was good, maybe even…great.

are you cuuurrrrrrrrriouuuuus?

It was hilarious.So on Saturday my friend Jackson and I met my friend John and his girlfriend, Katie, for lunch/dinner at Joe Boccardi’s, which was pretty tasty, and then went paddle boating at Forest Park.It reminded me that I love summer.I was also reminded this past week how much I really miss college and all the people at SIUE. I had a day off Tuesday so I had some time to visit some of the people I have missed the most. After a few minutes of hanging out, and answering the phone, it felt like I had never left. Those people are so amazing.I guess I should include a few pictures.

-jess

This feels the same
complications in different situations

between the trees~words

 

 

 

my mother has informed me that i need to update this here website. and so, in my saturday boredom, i have decided to do so.

i can’t think of much to do today, i already slept until 2 which took care of a good portion of the day. i’m not sure how i feel about that, but i suppose it’s too late now.

last night we celebrated my friend justin’s 21st birthday. it was pretty darn exciting to see him again, and to see him in this altered state of mind for the first time. we spent a few hours watching an amazing folkish group at a bar in Soulard called McGurks. in the past i haven’t enjoyed the place very much but last night we had a ton of fun. the banjo playing, the good friends, the atmosphere–it was a good time! we stayed a little too long though because by the time we left, every other bar in the universe (aside from the terrible Buka) was closing. we spent a few good minutes at the Venice Cafe, also in Soulard, before heading to a diner to get some middleofthenight snacks.

that’s me hugging the birthday boy–he’s been in cali for the summer so i haven’t seen him in quiiiitte some time

i am a big fan of the Venice Cafe–last night was actually only my 2nd time going there. it has a really really laid back feel to it–it’s very..hippieish. i like that about it, though. there are tons of random things nailed to the walls and they have a palm reader on staff in case you need a little advice or just want to see the future. (she read my palm a few weeks ago, but i’m not sure how much i actually learned from the exp.)

it was really cool though.

practically everyone i know is getting ready to start school back up..i, however, am old. and i am getting ready for another week at the bank.

nothing new.

i really really miss college. hanging out with my college friends last night only reminded me of that fact more. don’t get me wrong, my job, it’s alright, i just miss staying up late and seeing a million people i know each day. i even miss classes and homework. i don’t learn as much now and i really like learning (because i am a total nerd.)

i will probably go back at some point, but it’s just not the same in grad school.

i am old now.

i must deal with that.

and watch the cardinals game–which, by the way is going horribly. 0-5 against the cubbies. yep.

i’ll be sure and try to update more frequently now.

-jess

My city’s still breathing (but barely it’s true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
sparkled with broken glass.
I’m back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know.
Will never take me anywhere but here.

the weakerthans–left and leaving