i didn’t really sleep last night

and i guess that is the repercussion of having a 4 day weekend. and not sleeping for the bulk of it.

megan and i just made a delicious chicken dinner, and i ate alll of it, and now i’m feeling, like i’m going to fall over and pass out. so tired.

i’m trying to stay up for the real world. i’ve been missing it lately and i feel like i’ve lost 7 friends. not really, but i do enjoy the show.

first off

at the moment i am really enjoy the music of William Fitzsimmons. it’s perfect for my sleepy mood. definitely listen.

second off

i recorded some of my own music
it’s nothing special
just a quick recording from my digital camera
i didn’t even tune my guitar before i pressed record, so please don’t expect anything spectacular.

third off

october 28th
come see me play in alton
i will love you forever.
i think details will follow, but, around 7pm.

fourth off

i’m going skiing

in colorado

in decemeber

what a perfect birthday trip

yea??

i’ve only been skiing once, but i really really enjoyed it, and i know i would enjoy a whole week of it. and no working :)

last here’s the video. i’m going to go to sleep now, i know it’s 8pm, but i just realized how there is no way i’m going to make it til 9pm. so i might as well give in now.
and maybe i’ll go to work at 7am.

but probably not.

-jess

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today i worked for 11 hours

it was a long day

but it was okay, because even though i’m a terrible saleslady, i somehow managed to pull through, and do well.

and then i bought a bottle of wine (i didn’t drink all of it). and played guitar. until now. when i decided to do something semi-productive.

so i did a little photoshopping the other day, i made this picture. this may make me appear narcissistic. i’m okay with that. i’m not, really. narcissistic, i mean. probably the opposite.

yep. that’s me. i always look dreamy like that. every day.

so i’m really disappointed because i apparently don’t read commercials carefully enough. the office fooled me. here is how.

i was under the impression that the new season started today. i mean, i thought it was later, but then i kept seeing these commercials that said “tuesday, sept 11, series premiere 9/8c”

and i was soooo excited. then i turned it on, and realized, it truly was the SERIES premiere. the word series and season–very close. in fact, i didn’t even notice that they switched them on me.

so really, the SEASON premiere isn’t until the 27th. and it’s a thursday. which is normal.

but YEAH. i was pumped. now i have to wait another 16 days. that’s a long time.

i feel really lame and boring lately.

i live so far away from everyone (considering i once lived moments from nearly everyone)

now it’s a 30 minute drive. which can be taxing on a work night. and–this is belleville. it’s not the same as edwardsville. i can’t really just go to the coffeeshop and hang out. or go to the uc. or target. we don’t even have a target right now. and the only coffee shop close by closes at 6pm. and i don’t really feel safe wandering around past dark, so i can’t even walk or bike in the eve.

people get shot here, i think.

i missssss edwardsville.

so i don’t do many fun things on weeknights though. i wish i could get back into the habit of reading, but my eyes are so tired by the end of the day that i don’t.

i watch tv.

and play guitar–which is great. i’ve gotten a lot better.

i want to play more shows.

to show off my sweet guitar skills that i’ve developed.

so here’s something fun..
i think i need to go to the dentist.
and by fun, i mean, not fun at all.
i’m terrified too, because i’m afraid they’ll tell me it’s time to get these wisdom teeth out. (i’ve been putting that off)

but that will most likely deplete my guitar/laptop/emergency funds.

which is incredibly lame.
and awful.

wow i’m sorry, i’m so boring.

saturday night i watched Ghostbusters at the Tivoli.
i guess i haven’t seen that in like…12 years.
i didn’t realize how many sexual innuendos existed in that movie. i guess those escaped me as a child.

i really enjoyed it though. brought me back to my childhood!

i’m definitely a fan of the midnight showings at the Tivoli though. it’s a pretty sweet time to watch a movie. however, i always sleep in really late the next day and then i don’t get anything done at all.

i probably would have slept in anyway.

well, i need to be getting to bed. tomorrow will be another long day of loan sales. call me, if you need one. or a credit card. or insurance. or a checking account. or a savings account. or some investments.
we do everything.

-jess

And I’m leaning on this broken fence between Past and Present tense.And I’m losing all those stupid games that I swore I’d never play. But it almost feels okay.

the weakerthans~aside