my mom does this little thing..it’s a bit strange, but she leaves the tv on for our dogs when she goes out. but not just that..she leaves it on a specific channel..hgtv. as if my dogs are going to have some input during our next home remodel. whatever the reason, it can’t be denied that having a channel preference for our pets isn’t a little weird.

back when i spent more time at my parent’s house, i detested hgtv. i couldn’t understand how my mom, my sister, my sister’s fiance and even my dog’s could spend so many hours watching various shows about home remodeling and house searching and, well, all things home related.

however, in the past few months, something has happened to my opinion of hgtv. i can’t explain it, but for some reason, i can’t help but feel the desire to watch it all the time. i love watching first time home buyers relentlessly search for the perfect starter home. i fully enjoy watching a kitchen transform from a cheesy closed-in outdated space with appliances from the stone-age to the perfect, open, modern kitchen. i am excited about cheap design-on-a-dime tips.

i love it.

i watch it for hours on end. until they start playing the repeats from the 6am shows around 11pm.

perhaps i’m entering a new phase in my life. i mean less than 2 years ago i was cooped up in university housing, somehow managing to stuff all of my things and another person’s things into a room the size of my current closet. let’s be honest–in the realm of home design, there just isn’t much you can do with that.

i have space now, and though i’m not fully free to do as i please with my wall colors and floor plan and such, i can make changes that matter. i have a color scheme! my furniture matches AND it is not made of plastic or something i found in a pile by a random person’s trashcans (though i must admit i did get my computer chair for free on facebook). this is a step in the right direction.

however, i truly can’t wait to somehow how my own house to tear up and put back together. i want to create my “dream kitchen” and give myself a spa-worthy tub. i want a back yard, or at least a space large enough to entertain inside. i want to accessorize my living room. i want glasses and plates and silverware that match. i want to be the first person to own my couch.

argggg. i’ve come a long way, but i’ve still got a long road ahead of me.

that’s life, though, i guess.

-jess

And now after all my searching
After all my questions
I’m gonna call it home
I’ve got a brand new mindset
I can finally see the sunset
I’m gonna call it home

switchfoot ~ this is home