i’ll be trading in my suits for jeans.

i accepted a new job at an advertising agency called switch

it’s near downtown stl.

i’m pretty excited :)

i start on April 28th.

-jessica

This is one for the good days
And I have it all here
In red blue green
Red blue green

Radiohead ~Videotape

i look like a zombie. it seems i have acquired some type of allergic reaction which has caused my undereyes to glow red. it’s really awful.

and my eyes just hurt because the area around them is so swollen.

i’m not sure what has caused this, but it makes me very unhappy.

i’ve tired cucumbers, various lotions/gels, ice water, and a wet rag. luckily, the swelling went down, but the redness stays.

i feel very self-conscious.

oh well. i bought some pretty heavy concealer, and it seems to do the trick.

i just wish it would go away. i look like a creeper. a drug addict, maybe. or someone that never ever sleeps.

in other news– some exciting things have been happening, that i don’t want to talk about yet, as to not jinx them. but as soon as i know, i’ll let you know.

L.A. was nice. it was good to get away. it was great to see Micah. it was wonderful to feel like a kid again at Disneyland. it was perfect to get lost in the rides. it was exciting to feel weightless. it was peaceful on huntington beach.

it was good to get out of the suits and into a sundress (plus a sweatshirt, it was cold)

it was beautiful there.

i experienced the best frozen yogurt ever.

yogurtland.

it was amazing. so many flavors and toppings. the best part was, you just walk in, get a cup, fill it with whatever of 10 different kinds of frozen yogurt you would like, then you pile on toppings YOURSELF, so if you want a cup full of cookie dough and oreos (or strawberries and kiwi), you just pile away.

then they weigh it. it’s a pretty sweet deal.

long beach is great.

i recommend going there if you’re in so cal.
i guess i shall post some pictures for you. just don’t steal them and pretend they are you at a gaming website. that’s dumb.

-jessica

 

Soon all the clouds will disappear,
And leave just you and me.
‘Cause a little bit of sunlight is all that I want from you,
A little bit of sunlight,
Is all that I want

the kinks ~ a little bit of sunlight

So, L.A. I’m here! We got in late on Saturday night. We’re staying close to the airport. It’s not exactly the glamorous part of Los Angeles, but it’s not a bad area.

We rented a car. It wasn’t expensive as we thought it would be, in fact, we decided to go with the GPS (because we all know how MY directional skills can sometimes be :)), and they didn’t even charge us for it. I’m pretty much a fan of Enterprise now. They have my loyalty. Plus they were super nice and he let us pick whatever car we wanted.

I highly recommend them.

So….it’s cold here. It’s like….60 degrees. Even colder by the water. Ugh. No tan for me. It’s ALMOST record lows. We did hit the beach yesterday, though. We went to Santa Monica Pier, walked around, played in the water a little. Then we headed over to Beverly Hills to get lunch and shop a little. I bought some new flats. They’re nice.

Beverly Hills was okay. It’s mostly just a lot of expensive stores that I can’t even begin to afford at this point in my life.

The area was beautiful, though. Just amazing houses, palm trees, shiny cars. Good stuff.

I don’t think I would ever want to live here, though. While L.A. certainly has some nice parts, it’s too big. Too much activity. Too commercialized. I’d rather live somewhere more laid back….

Plus it’s expensive here!

We also went to Hollywood yesterday. We probably didn’t spend enough time there, though. I think we might be going back on Wednesday morning. Hollywood had a lot of weird stuff. Weird shops. Hooker boots. People dressed up. It was interesting! We went to the Wax Museum, had dinner at a pretty nifty restaurant, did a little shopping (I bought a VERY cute black dress).

I haven’t seen any movie stars yet….frankly, I’m not sure if I care to. I don’t know what I’d do….watch them walk by? Maybe I’d tap into my inner paparazzi and snap a few shots.

Today I’m meeting up with an old friend from grade school. We used to date in 2nd grade, haha. His name is Micah Rush–I haven’t seen him in about 8 years or something excessive like that…I’m pretty excited!

Anyway–my initial response to L.A. is still sort of iffy. We still have a few more days though…and Disneyland!

-Jessica

California…knows how to party
In the citaaay of L.A.

tupac ~ california love

 

 

…guess who will be in L.A. in just one week…

 

 

 

 

Los Angeles, I’m yours.

~the decemberists

• Meiko ~ How Lucky We Are

• Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova ~ All The Way Down

• Joe Purdy ~ I Love the Rain Most

• Page France ~ Junkyard

• Schuyler Fisk & Josh Radin ~ Paperweight

• The Almost ~ Amazing, Because It Is

• Amiina ~ Rugla

• Belle and Sebastian ~ Sleep the Clock Around

• The Blow ~ True Affection

• Feist ~ I Feel It All

• Ingrid Michaelson ~ The Way I Am

• Landon Pigg ~ Falling In Love At a Coffee Shop

• Maria Taylor ~ Clean Getaway

• New Buffalo ~ I’ve Got You and You’ve Got Me

• Sea Wolf ~ Middle Distance Runner

• Vega 4 ~ Life is Beautiful

• Yael Naim ~ New Soul

 

 

I think you will like these. Go Listen :)

 

So won’t you run to me tonight?
Tonight let’s not talk about next summer
Cause I’ll only ever be a middle distance runner

sea wolf ~ middle distance runner

 

i’ve become quite stir crazy lately.

just ready to get outta here, take a vacation, lay on a beach, shop in a new mall, play at a park i’ve never been to before, eat ice cream without guilt far away from home.

i’m so sick of the ordinary day in day out. the weather has been increasingly more beautiful and it kills me to see it only through windows.

i love the smell of the air early in the morning on one of those “perfect spring days”

no matter what awful thing may have happened that morning-woke up late, cold shower, no milk, etc. doesn’t matter. the beauty of the day wipes it away.

that’s a good day.

it’s hard to stay mad on those days, too.

how could you possibly.

and the best part? the evening. just after dark, when it’s still warm, but there is a cool breeze coming in. wearing a jacket (NOT a coat).

walking the dog, looking at houses i could never afford, talking–maybe just spending time with someone else.

i love those evenings.

sometimes i even forget that i have to work the next day. it’s just so peaceful.

i like to take a drive to nowhere with the windows down listening to some awesome cd. personally i prefer to pop in a death cab cd. or maybe a mix cd. as long as it’s a good one.

i can’t wait until i can do that almost every day.

and then i can’t wait for summer rain. there is something so wonderful about being soaking wet, but not being cold. warm rain is perfect rain.

and jumping in puddles is even better.

snow is ok. but i’m done with it.

i’m ready for new life.

i’m taking tomorrow off. i need a break. today i was filling out a form and before i realized it, i had put my work phone number, my work email address, and my work zip code.

obviously i have been typing it far too much lately. i can’t figure out what i’ve been doing with my time lately aside from work. and when that happens, i just need to take a day off.

it’s okay, i have lots of vacation to use, anyway.

salessalessales.

i’ve sold more credit cards than i ever would have imagined.

i’m not sure how i feel about that.

did you know there are 8 gagillion self-help ezines available on the internet?

i mean, i figured there were a lot, but there are truly an insane amount.

no, i didn’t read any of them.

but maybe i should:)

-jessica

Give me a reason to fall in love
Take my hand and let’s dance
Give me a reason to make me smile
Cause I think I forgot how

 

I wanna fall asleep with you tonight
I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight
I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever

meiko ~ reasons to love you

 

so it’s march

and it’s snowing

on sunday it was almost 80

and girls were wearing tank tops and at the mall (not me, though, because i found that to be a bit premature)

but nonetheless

girls were wearing little amounts of clothing.

and people were outside playing

and enjoying life.

then the next day

ice

and snow

and awfulness.

and now my car is a pile of ice and snow.

again

so now that i’m done complaining about the weather

google took away my page ranking

what once was 2

is now 1

i’m verysad

though i’m not really sure what the means.

my alexa score has stayed constant

so google should really rethink this decision, i think.

read this book:

Dale Carnegie’s Lifetime Plan for Success

perhaps the title sounds silly, but it’s actually quite wonderful.

my dad gave it to me.  highly recommended.

he’s a very smart man, with good opinions.

and a great beard.

-jessica

 

 

 

Be prepared to modify your plan.

It’ll be good for you.

 

 

 

i mean like, really grow up. i know i’m an “adult” now. i have a real job. i am done with school. all the good ages have passed. i think that once you hit 21, the things you look forward to change drastically.

when i’m 25, i can rent a car without paying insane insurance fees. wwwooooah.

right now i feel like life is on hold. but i’m still getting older, as are my family and friends. i still feel like i’m stuck in the college schedule. sleeping late, eating bad food, living with a roommate, rent…..

i want to live with a husband, cook meals, live in a house, pay a mortgage….

go on couples vacations. i’m not ready for children yet, but someday i will be, and i can’t get there from here directly.

i’m sick of the college stage of life.

weird.

i wish i owned a house in colorado. and one somewhere warm. by some body of water. and at least one of my residences would have a large window facing a city skyline.

and there would be a big leather couch. and a big hdtv. and probably a wet bar. and a hot tub.

that probably won’t happen any time soon (if ever).

but i guess if i work hard enough, i can do at least some of the things i dream about doing. i could travel.

if someone offered me a job that was 75% travel. i would take it. because i just want to see everything. and meet everyone. and go to coffee shops i’ve never been to before.

i would get a better phone plan.

and i would add more text messages so that i don’t go over my limit every month like i do now. i think i would also get a new phone. because i need my phone and my calendar to be the same. as much as i love google calendar, it doesn’t do me any good if i’m away from my computer.

i want to get stressed out from time to time.

i want to work late because i HAVE to in order to finish a project.

i want weird things.

and i want to go to breckenridge.

-jessica

I get so distracted
By some peoples reactions
That I don’t see my own faults
For what they are
For what they are

 

At times so self destructive
With no intent or motive
But behind this emotion,
There lies a sensible heart

 

city and colour ~sensible heart

is filled with news about the weather

ice/snow/ice/snow

traffictraffictraffic crash.

i’m off today….because i have to work saturday. sometimes it’s nice to stay home on a week day. it’s like a happy little vacation in the middle of the week.

i bet it’s slow at the bank today. while many of our customers will brave any conditions to complain about their accounts, the majority will stay home. these are the reasonable customers.

this isn’t the end of this weather. i do not look forward to scraping my car tomorrow. at least there is not 9 inches of slow like last time. dress shoes and snow drifts around your car–these things do not mix well. i’m glad they say there is another 6 to 8 hours of sleet to look forward to. now, i would rather have this, this sleetly snowy mix, as opposed to some straight freezing rain we had last year that took out all the power and knocked down trees.

let’s hope it doesn’t get like that.

i’m moving to arizona.

not really–but they don’t get freezing rain there.

i’m not really sure what my parents were thinking when they settled here in the midwest. this weather is unacceptable.
perhaps you can sense my discontent. surely you understand if you have the unfortunate pleasure of living here as well.

the other day i went to see onerepublic, josh kelley, & the daylights, and i must say, i kind of enjoyed myself. i was surprised too.

jess

 

i honestly don’t believe i’ve been, don’t believe i’ve been alright
looking for all the stupid things, all the stupid things you’ll find
i don’t get it, i don’t get it right all the time

manna and quail ~ honestly